Album 4: Blue as in bliss

MDMA by the sea

I used to believe
that happiness would be
MDMA by the sea
In the morning hours
In some foreign town
like Zoagli

Thanks for reminding me
that happiness can be
just watching the sparrows
sitting in the birch tree
Up by the playground
where I grew up

It was a hand to hold
A torch in the mine
A breath of Xenon air
to shut the noise down
A target painted on my back
I was counted with the dead

My boat was burning but I didn't see the danger
since I was sailing on water
All flesh is grass nothing will last
but I was made from hay
Yes I was made from hay

When the poison
let go of your body
Cause you give it more
I thought that it was freedom
I thought that life was waiting
in the next rush

Oh the rush, the rush
Burned with denial
soaked in self disgust
I hid in the haze
God it was good
when you existed

Well I wasn't lost
and I sure ain't found
Though I couldn't see
wouldn't say that I was blind

My boat was burning but I didn’t see the danger
I was sailing on water
All flesh is grass nothing will last
but I was made from hay
Yes I was made from hay

For him to sleep on
I realize
everything lead up to him
A shield to shield him
A shield to shield him



Turnstiles

Where are you going?
Who am I to ask?
Obviously
as lost as I ever was

Hazy eyes
can not lie about
Feather nights
and the emptiness you try to hide

If you could only read the sign
saying that you’re headed towards the turnstiles
Loui oh Loui
There's still time to turn around
Loui oh Loui
I can't walk for you but I..

Every smile
You have to pay for it after a while
So you hold it back
Try not to put yourself in debt
You learned so much
in just one day
You learned that learning comes through pain

If you could only read the sign
saying that your headed towards the turnstiles

Loui oh Loui
There's still time to turn around
Loui oh Loui
I believe in you, you fool
Loui oh Loui
I can't walk for you but I
wait here by the blackthorn bushes
where you got stung when you were a child


Love is falling apart in each others arms

It's so cold hear
for the most part of the year
But everyday now
his candle lighting laughter spread a light
in this our house
We are now one babe
look at him smiling
We are now one
look at him running

He teaches me everything that I'd forgotten about magic
Makes me believe in things
I stopped believing in
And the only thing I've learned so far
from this life worth passing on
is this


Love is falling apart
in each others arms
No matter what they tell you
simple as that
No matter what they tell you
complex as that

It’s so hard to keep
up with this tornado
Hold on to your seat
when all four wheels are burning
We are now one
look at him painting
Look at him being
weightless peaceful out of reach

Love is falling apart
holding you in my arms
I can’t take it you mean more to me
than anything suppose to mean

I just wanna sit here
and watch him while he sleeps
I can learn a lot
from just watching him breath
And the only thing I've learned so far
from this life worth passing on
is this

Love is falling apart
in each others arms
No matter what they tell you
simple as that
No matter what they tell you,
complex as that


Golden chain

 

I was staring at a crack
in the ceiling as you spoke
For every word you did not say
the fear cut deeper into me
The sound of one soul going under
The silence like thunder
There's a crack there's a crack in everything
There's a crack in this ring

I was thinking Leonard Cohen is a lair
no light comes shining in
From now on I burn alone
like in a sad Bill Withers song

A part of me I gave you
A bigger part you took away
You wear it as a necklace and
You wear it in a golden chain
You wear it in a golden chain

I was sentenced to the front line
without knowing the reason for the war
I didn't know what I was fighting for
but I would loose even more
I didn't know his name back then
but I could taste it on your tongue
A kiss can hurt so much Jesus Christ
A mouth a wound a crack

Our subsistence must have been made from paper
Our rules written in salt

A spark can lead to forest fire
turn everything to ashes and
I use the grimes to write this poem
I use his voice to sing this song
I use his voice to sing this song



The strive, the strive, the strive..

The night was always pitch black here
but now it has turned cold
The birds they are still singing
some thousand miles from home
This life will soon begin
I hear myself sing
But my voice it ain't as steady as it has been

Is this really all that there is
Dreams like shackles I'm chained to this shit
Is this really all there is
The strive, the strive and one day you just quit

Baby hold me
Come whisper in my ear
give up give up give in
this fight you can not win
You're breaking
I hear you falling apart
The light you're talking about
the one you say is further up the line
It breaks my heart love to tell you that it's only
in your mind

Is this really all that there is
Dreams like shackles I'm chained to this shit
Is this really all that there is
The strive, the strive and one day you just quit


Been walking such a long way in the opposite
direction of the wind
I ain’t living no life no
I'm struggling to win this fight lord
I'm breaking, like marble fall apart


Technicolor dream
***

 

Rock’n'roll halo

 

Such a heavy shadow hanging over you
Under such a pressure something has to brake
Obviously something broke in you
Heard you bleeding through every line
Heard you crying with a smile
Haunted like if under a spell
You sang it like if every
word meant farewell
You refused to play their game
but honesty doesn't lead to fame

Karen Dalton it’s such a shame
When death came
they did not write your name in gold no
did not give you that rock n roll halo

If you’d been a man would your dreams have turned to sand?
Would your songs been left in shadows then?
It's a hard life and it's three times as hard if you’re a woman
cause we're all expected to obey the rules made up to favor men
And just like them you traded your guitar for a needle and a spoon
even you torn to pieces in a drug abuse
You were not for them to tame
Toothless smile doesn't suit their hall of fame

Karen Dalton it’s such a shame
When death came
they did not write your name in gold no
did not give you that rock n roll halo

You can’t make it without ever even trying
I know that you did
You can’t make it without ever even trying

 

Stockholm, hold your son

Well it's a struggle
always thirst
I’m digging with my bare hands in the stone cold earth
Always thinking this must be where
I buried the treasure as a child
as a child

Peacock feather stroke my nervous heart
a wooden shelter
magic sparks
I miss you almost all the time
when I'm with you I not present now
Head up in the low bound clouds
eyes on tomorrow
or what left behind

Stockholm - hold me now                               
Stockholm - I'll be staying here for the rest of my life
Stockholm - sing me to sleep be so kind
Stockholm - hold me now
Let me lay down on your ground

It's like they're asking to buy my blood
to keep in stock
If their greedy bodies
some day run out
I sacrificed almost everything
this guitar is like a needle sting
Klara I miss you even though we never met
But I still see your ghost still hear your breath
underneath the concrete
If I lay my ear to the ground
and dream myself
back in time

Stockholm - hold me now
Stockholm - they tear us down
Stockholm  - is that the sound of wrecking ball
Stockholm - hold me now
Let me lay down in your ground

I know someone who says they're gonna hang
the fuckers that cut the oak down
in the same oak in the next life

EP: Lynx

Lynx

When the worry comes blowing through the tree crowns
You will find strength in
That if you've made it up til now
You can make it one more time

Life will burn you curls
And life will bleach your blue eyes
You must remember child
That the storm will always abate
If you just wait
You just wait

Oh little lynx
Where you come from, we leave the light on at night
Oh little lynx the northern light can not be put out

Your mother is mountain ash
I guess I'm just some weed
We both bend in strong winds
And when the lightning gets rough
It's a good thing we're not tall enough
To get struck

I was worried you were gone
Before you even came around
Even though you don't stick to me all the time
I will always be found
If I'll ever be gone
Well it won't be for long
If I'll ever be gone
You'll find me in this song

Oh little lynx
You walk straight only you know where you're bound
Oh little lynx you walk straight, and I'll stay close behind

 

Caravaggio's hand

Sometimes I stare out from cathedral window eyes
Sometimes they stare back at me
Lying in my stone slab bed
Big eyes of guilt
Nail me with the concentration of a rattlesnake

My enemy is my reflection and how it smiles back at me
As if it's got the solution
To some game of chess I'm losing
Big mouth, be shut
Restless mind, be still   

Oh Felicia, something to sleep on just this one night
Shoot the Hitchcock ravens staring from the bus-bar line
I can hear the sound of my days passing by
Break reality's strong hands, let me leave for a while
I can't sleep nor turn back time

In the paralyzed deer's eyes, I see myself
Fear as real as if it came from
Caravaggio's hand
Big eyes of fear
The roadkill knows what it's all about

I wish some memories could fall back into
A coma
Of oblivion, the opposite of resurrection
Return to nothing
To end where one began
Atheist heaven here I am  

Oh Felicia, something to sleep on just this one night
Stop the windmill's wings from going 'round and 'round
Grinding all my thoughts to powder
Break reality's strong hands, let me leave for a while
I can't sleep nor turn back time


Northern Nights

The castele's colors will vanish and fade
The teeth of time bite through everything like if it was made
Out of flesh
The angel oak will eventually lay her leaf encrusted head to the ground
And the ship
Made from her body will sink into the sand
Cause the mighty seas will die and where they laid you will find
Dry land
But our love will outlive this earth

Baby you're my rock bottom riser
Gibraltar steady stands our love
We fall together from the northern heights
We burn together in the northern nights

Oh baby it's against the laws of gravity
But when I carry you, you carry me
No bird's been singing around me
Since
The predators started following me
Nine to nine in the light of day
But when I'm with you I can hear the nightingale sing again
There are not many left, but I have one singing in my chest
Our love will outlive this earth

Baby you're my rock bottom riser
Gibraltar steady stands our love
We fall together from the northern heights
We burn together in the northern nights

 

The Leaning Apple Tree
                                                  
Even the cracks in the stem of the leaning apple tree
Elder berries, the arbour, the red house, the swing and the oat fields
Everything has remained untouched, like walking straight into
A childhood photography

I'm crossing the fields, where new horses stray
I walk carefully on the roadside
I do not dive from the steam boat pier into the shallow sea
You taught me how to speak here
You gave me air to breathe here
And it was still a secret you were dying

I'm only a part of the runnel called time
I'm passing your blood on to my child
Who's soon to climb
The leaning apple tree

Twenty years, an eternity back then
Twenty years, seems like nothing now that I see him play by the oat field
I will teach him how to speak here
I will give him air to breathe here
And I will keep it secret that one day
I will be taken away

Cause I'm just a part of the runnel called time
I'm passing your blood on to my child
Who's soon to climb
The leaning apple tree

 



Album 3: Tinder Stick Neck

Scandinavian minds

We walked far out on Decembers ice
Protected by the absence of light
We were high, we were happy therefore blind
I thought I was Jesus son
I walk on water, but part time
my father was a priest
You said; you're a funny guy
Tough…
My father really was a priest

I knew it from the start
A worried mind an iron heart
We would not make it back in time
our hang man was the April sun
April sun, oh april sun, go easy on our easy on our

Scandinavian minds
In this light  all our lies swell
Like dead boar bodies
Like dead boar bodies
Like dead boar bodies
in the sun

 

How can, how can, how can it be
that everything I long for vanish into the sea
There’s a hole in the ice were your boots used to stand
There’s a hole in the sky and the sun is coming down
Swim for your life, swim under ice
I was born and raised up north, I will be fine but
April sun, oh April sun go easy on our easy on our

Scandinavian minds
In this light  all our lies swell
Like dead boar bodies
Like dead boar bodies
Like dead boar bodies
in the sun



Wolverine, Death machine

I found your wings outside the bar
Without fear I went inside
You greeted me with a smile
Showing your wolf teeth
You said I, I, I
I am happy you’re finally free
I’m happy this does not hurt for you
Then you pushed your cigarette into my eye

From lioness to wolverine
From wolverine to death machine

By her side Mr. Innocent eyes
chained to her wrist
He does not know the meaning of pain yet
Oh merciful, oh merciful god
Have mercy have mercy on him
Have mercy, have mercy on him
Don’t ever make him understand

From lioness to wolverine
from wolverine to death machine

 

Cedar tree

Don’t have no cedar tree
To which I can return like a magpie before I burn
When my fear
has destroyed what once was me
No green foliage plateau to lay my wings upon before I go

Oh ceder tree, rock me
Ceder, rock me
Take the worry of my mind, let me fade out let’s get numb

Heroin smooth
that’s how thing’s used to ´fore I layed my eyes upon tree
There is no trouble when your tree-top-high
I don’t speak before I know what I’m talking about, but I did not feel I had to know what it was like
To fill the inside of my mouth
With dry dead soil
Kick in my teeth and break my arms just to find myself begging by your feet

Oh ceder tree, rock me
Ceder, rock me
Ceder tree, rock me
Ceder, rock me
Let the rope fall down and let me climb towards the sun, I am ready
Your stem is thick, it’s thick enough to carry me though I am heavy
Let me fall asleep upon your crown of leaves,
Rock me

 

Tinder Stick Neck

If I would escape, fall asleep with laced blood
No more doubt, no worry, not deaths breath raging in my neck
I’m row deer, trapped in this dreadful pit
I know the eagle kills more than he can eat

I can’t find peace, with your eyes nailed on me
I can’t find peace, ‘fore you break my

Tinder stick neck
Tinder stick breath
Tinder stick heart
Oh merciless death
I should know you by now
Cause I shook your hand more than twice
I’ve looked you in the eye
Give me respite

But if I am to die
Lay my row deer heart in morphine bath
Sweet delusion, stay with me ‘til the end of time
Please continue to rule my mind
I will be an impala soon walking on peaceful land
That’s what I wanna believe when my hooves lift from the ground
The sound of flapping wings over my tinder stick neck

I can’t find peace with your shadow circling around me
I can’t find peace, ’fore you break my

Tinder stick neck
Tinder stick breath
Tinder stick heart
Merciless death
I should know you by now
Cause I shook your hand more than once I’ve looked you in the eye
Give me respite


17

When we meet I’m 17 again
I’m a baseball of glass
You wear your Babe Ruth smile,
your favorite bat,
I am nailed to the wooden ground

We are tarantulas, one must die, make space
So the other one can breathe
My destiny was written in my genes
I know that I will die, it scares me but sometimes it gives me peace.

I can’t walk this earth and grief
Someone so close to me but impossible to reach
I can’t live this life you see
I must’ve been born to be with you and I can´t change destiny
I wish that I’d been wiser when I was 17

This love is like the seasons, dead as spring,
resurrecting. changing body, changing skin
Oh why must it look so pretty and why must it be so mean
I wish that I’d been wiser when I was 17

You said don’t hold no grudge on me
But that’s what I have to hang on to
You said you will soon run out of tears
But I still live my life like it’s been over for years

I can’t live this life you see
I must have been born to be with you and I can’t change destiny
And you have vanished into the air
the very same air in which must live, which I must breath

I wish that I’d been wiser when I was
I wish that I’d been wiser when I was
I wish that I’d been wiser when I was
I wish that I’d been wiser when I was 17

I know you can’t see me from your side of the track
Life's a locomotive, it’s blocking our view as it’s passing through
I’m stuck out here, but for a moment there
I thought I saw your face flash by in a window on that train
I wish that I’d been wiser when I was
17

 

Wooden arms

When you play there's no guitar
strings attached to your arms
Brother if I ever fall
May the wind carry every single note from heart to heart
I'm tied to the weight of words
shame and guilt there's love and thirst
When you play there's no such curse
No words can embrace such dept
Nor define what it’s worth

Oh ho steady tempo
it's your amplified heart
keeps my pulse from fading out
from fading out

But brother If I had to leave
don't you go and look for me
not in the pines nor in the city lights,
I won't be found
Wooden arms and vessel full of blood
Where did you learn to play like that?
There is a crossroad where the devil is waiting at
But I know you haven't been cause your soul is still intact

Oh ho, steady tempo
it's your amplified heart
keeps my pulse from fading out
show my heart how to beat and pump
force the air into my lungs


Majestic Jaws

There used to be a time when I saw time
as never ending
A rabbits heart, a nervous ache
I am bow string about to break
Before I touched Satan’s tools
we used to dance in harmony
Now I crawl to the rhythm of your slave drum
I'm drawn towards the mesmerizing choirs
singing about relief
and his majestic jaws

Your soothing words are feather light they travel with the polar wind
but I'm headed south
I phlebotomize to gain strength, I drink to take control
though this battle can't be won
Before I learned the secret rules
and heard of scientific proof
I was secure in the arms of my savior
Now I'm a trembling flame in the hurricanes heart
I'm as fragile as a wafer ´tween his
majestic jaws

 

Hawthorn

I’m dry as tinder, you’re diesel drum
I’m trying to keep the distance
Just as planned
The hawthorn, Berlin, the red sea
knows how I feel, divided
close to nothing, left of what I used to be

I will die first
I will die
I will die first
I will die
from thirst

And the love I ever had to give
I wasted it on you as a kid
You did not split my heart, you tore what was me apart
It was not about love, I worshiped you like they worshiped Manson to.

It was devotion that caused the distance
It was the damage that made me
I’m constantly paying a debt
for all the things you wasted and the money you kept
Hawthorn smell you take me by the arm
You kick start my heart, you kick start my heart again
Hawthorn smell you take me back in time
You kick start my heart, you kick start my heart again

And the love I ever had to give
I wasted on you as a kid
You did not split my heart, you tore what was me apart
It was not about love, I worshiped you like they worshiped Manson too.

 

Voodoo whispering

Yester love, is it true what I’ve heard about you
You got cyanid eyes, I have been such a fool
My life is now in the hands of any fool that wants it to be
You’ve got a lioness smile,
I have chained myself to the wailing wall, been a slave under the needle
I flew with the swift to a magic land where the colors went from red to green, from green to blue, from blue to black, to black, to black
In order to stay away from you

Yester friend is that you again
coming back to kiss, then have them kill me
I’ve got fifteen uniforms, I’ve got 96 degrees
to protect my frozen body from being reminded of your heat.
I’m gonna meet you with a gun in my hand you will leave alone
I’m gonna meet you with a gun in my hand and you will leave with blood on your hands

You spellbind my legs with your voodoo whispering
you erase the space between us with my feet
You spellbind my legs with your vodoo-whispering
you erase the space between us with my feet
with my feet

 

Streiff

The heart has its reasons, which reason does not know
I need these shots to gain control
Racing at a break neck speed
tax the body heavily

It is a narrow road
That we walk
It’s narrow road
It’s narrow road that we walk
but we are lost

You said come hang with me
Prepare yourself for misery
I’m dry as tinder you’re a diesel drum
Come lay your body next to mine
I’m gonna drown your sorrows like a kitten in the tide
Throw away what weighs you down
There comes a time for you to pay

Like Streiff the horse you carry me
Over foggy fields
The bullet in your neck makes
you hard to steer
You’re leading me towards the enemies
Love you’re leading me towards the enemies
Love you’re leading me towards the enemies
Love you’re leading me towards the enemies

It is a narrow road
That we walk
It’s a down bound spiral but it works as a cure
if only I can have
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